Do you know how there are sayings like 'rounding that corner' or 'getting over that hill' to convey a sense of positive movement past uncomfortable periods?
I do feel like I am rounding the corner with my personal journey and also with my journey with M. My dark humor reared its head last night after another round of conversations (internal and external). I looked at the calendar and realized it was January of 2008. Wow. I feel like I missed out on the better part of 2007 to various situations.
I've felt more positive about what I want for about a month now, so I've felt lighter and more at peace. Still, I had a lot of thinking to do last night. Walk away, stay and work things out, bury myself in some terrible addiction... so many options. As it turns out, I am going to do the first two options. I am going to stay and work on things with M. I am also going to really start reaching in my life to do the things I've wanted to do... travel, eat better and well, photography, and take up that hobby... knitting.
Anyway, I feel lighter in my heart knowing that I am going to be fine no matter what happens. I also feel a little apprehensive to the possibilities of the new year. I wonder when I'll stop feeling so cautious and tender about certain topics?
I guess I just have to keep walking and talking and laughing until I get around this corner.
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Good for you D! :D
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