Me and Stella

I am really looking forward to driving home to Los Angeles next week. It will be over 1100 miles of highway time. For those of you who know me, I used to like to drive a lot to clear my mind. It's one of my meditative practices. I guess that sounds odd since it sounds like I am not attentive while driving.

I am attentive, but I do enjoy the flow of the road and seeing the sights.

I am at unsure if I am going to stop at friend's places on the way down. I want to visit but I am feeling a powerful need to go home and see my first home.

I am hoping to visit Morro Bay area at some point, specifically Los Osos. I want walk on the sand dunes and sand spit. I learned to walk and run there after my paralysis years ago. It's a special place to me. During the summer, it's the perfect nexus of sun, wind, and surf. During the winter (like now), it will likely be cold and windy... but can't deny my heart.

Not so blatantly, I am want my groove back. I don't feel normal anymore. I feel like a shade or out of sync with life. I am a wraith and an echo. I want to be whole again and feel good.

If Stella can get her groove back, so can I. California, here I come.